Bliss of Life

It is something I am coming to terms with, but the truth is, I am.  I said I wanted a modern house with ridiculously tall ceilings and a gluttonous amount of space in our price range.  Two days later I found it.  Then I said, “I want to sell our current house before it goes on the market because I know that it is possible.”  And I did.  All of this happened in a little over a month.  Now I am creating the possibility of having a pool, but not just any pool, a bionova natural pool because it is chemical free and I also get the pond I’ve always wanted.

Yes, it feels sort of petty and superficial to say that I want these things, especially in writing, but this is Texas where it’s beyond hot 9 months out of the year.  And even if that wasn’t the case, it is well past time for me to allow myself luxuries without feeling guilty or concerned about appearing spoiled.  Since I’m letting go of appearances, I want my children to go to private school because as a child I went to public school until I was in the middle of my 7th grade year when I moved to a private school.  It took me a semester and a half to catch up to where everyone else was in private school, which I did, but everything was different.  Teachers taught.  Students studied.  And in between no one ever threatened to beat me up after school.  For those reasons, I am creating the possibility of sending my children to private school.

I have more to manifest, like the dream car I’ve wanted since I was 15, and the trip to India to stay in my Guru’s Ashram in Kashi.  But for now, I am going to create the possibility of having more money than I readily know what to do with.  I like the idea of seeking out places to give our money.  And I know that until I accept the possibility that I can have more money than I know what to do with, it will never happen.  I’ve spent most of my time on this planet really believing that there is always a trade off, not a surplus.  I am changing that belief right now because the one thing that always is, no matter what, is Love.  Love is never a trade off.  Love is a surplus.  Why can’t life be that way too?